Apr 14

Create, Consume, Move Along, Move Forward, Stand Still

Life and all the things around it have had their impact. I keep getting older despite the best efforts to think my way out of that situation, life keeps having a set of demands brought on by my own choices and the world around me. I’ve created things in the past, minor things, but have at least made something. I have consumed many things in the past, leaving a trail of experiences in my wake for some, and leaving nothing much else to show for those things.

(Tangentially, that might explain a lot about Americans and humans in general. Collecting things results from experiencing things getting smaller and smaller as they grow older, or as they grow dumber. Perhaps hoarding is best explained by a lack of experiences. Collecting and buying are micro-experiences, but having the thing is the price you pay for it. Dealing with the thing forever on after. Managing all the things.)

Consuming creates something, though: moving along. Moving from moment to moment without experiencing anything, it’s like standing still. Moving along is pretty much the standing still of consuming. You pop from consuming experience to consuming experience without much to show for it except things, thus things come to have great importance. After some time, they come to be the only important thing. The THINGS are the thing.

And you either move along standing still with all the things because you can no longer drag them along with you, or you lose the things and you move forward. You lose things, you move forward

Apr 12

Showing Up Is Half The Battle

Showing up for yourself to do anything is half the battle. To job hunt. To work when you find a job. For parenting. For living life.

Showing up is really more than half the battle, it pretty much is all of it. You don’t do it when you don’t show up. Presence is everything.

Your physical body there isn’t enough. That’s not being there, showing up, or presence. That is your body existing in the same spot as an event.

The current phrase in use is “mindfulness”, and all it means is being aware and present. It sounds easy but has become increasingly difficult for a lot of us that are fueled by the next thing to come up.

I am going to try to show up and be present for more things in my creative life, my financial life and my parenting life (not necessarily in that order).

For my creative life that means finding making and scheduling moments to write, draw, and sit down and make things.  For my financial life it means doing the small things every day that lead to the big things happening and growing. For my parenting life it means the most, which is paying attention to my words, tones, and reactions to my daughter.

For today, it means starting somewhere. That’s here. Just to write, journal, and get it out. I’ve done it off and on for years, and I can’t imagine how many words have came and went. But I’m curious if I can finally make some bad habits of the past few years turn around and create on a regular basis.